Thursday, June 19, 2014

Thursday, June 19th, 2014; maybe i'm just tired

I've been on the internet for a solid hour. I count this different from watch tele on the computer or playing games or having simple conversations with people I know.
Here, I have made some quirky jokes, saw a lot of sad feelings, tried to keep a conversation with a stranger, missed a friend, and witnessed some confusing world news.
In this hour, I feel as though I have felt to many things in such a short instance. Normally when I go onto social networking sites I ignore most things that don't have to do with a handful of people.
But now my head hurts. I kind of regret streaming through countless pages looking at pretty photographs and talking to some girl that was in my class last semester and reading about transgender news in foreign countries.
Maybe my head hurt from the beginning, maybe it's because the same song has been on repeat for about thirty minutes. Maybe it's because I can't help that the efficiency of the internet is a beautiful thing, or maybe I'm simple minded. Maybe I haven't drunk enough water. I don't know, really, I really don't know. I just feel slightly altered, confused, and I'm ready to sleep.
Things are happening though, and ontop of the internet, I can't stop thinking about them.
I'm moving out in two weeks
I'm leaving for tour in four weeks
Music is thriving in six weeks
My love leaves me in seven weeks.
He returns in sixteen weeks.
I'm supposed to be moving again thirty weeks.
But who knows what will really happen.