"If you figure it out, by god tell everyone."
I wish I could figure it out, or I wish someone else would, & then tell me all about it. Sometimes I feel like I'm trapped on the dark side of the moon, alone & freezing due to my own rigid emotions.
My own inner-most personal feelings are hard to express; I can't even figure it out within my own thoughts.
I don't want to push everyone away again but I can already tell that I'm doing that & I don't know why I'm doing it & I don't know if I can stop.