Friday, September 28, 2012

When you're turned away, are caught up, deranged, confused, or simply just observing each molecule with your olive green eyes & I can lightly touch your skin without you realizing
are the moments I love you most.

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

September 18th, 2012; melancholy

"If you figure it out, by god tell everyone."

I wish I could figure it out, or I wish someone else would, & then tell me all about it. Sometimes I feel like I'm trapped on the dark side of the moon, alone & freezing due to my own rigid emotions.
My own inner-most personal feelings are hard to express; I can't even figure it out within my own thoughts.
I don't want to push everyone away again but I can already tell that I'm doing that & I don't know why I'm doing it & I don't know if I can stop.

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

Wednesday, September 12th, 2012; Well

I wish my parents would climb out of bed
but I wish they could still feel rest.
I wish my parents would settle down.
I wish my parents would smile at me
-for me.

Friday, September 7, 2012

Friday, September 7th, 2012; Knitted

For the next minute & a half I will not let my thoughts collapse:
This morning I awoke & my shell had fallen off my back & shattered into a million pieces. I threw all the unmatchable fractions into the street & drove away filled with fear & suffocated by smoke.
My own consciousness taunted me during every moment to come throughout the entirety of the day. My heart spoke in whispers in fear of who might be listening around a corner.
I have drenched myself in the oils dug from within the earth because I thought that it was a good idea.
My veins cry out every day for hydration. My lips stutter from lack of strength.
But when the sun falls behind & the moon finds her vantage point, I stumble upon a new protector, I give him all that I am, I sleep solemnly for less than eight hours, & then I reawaken to fear.

Sunday, September 2, 2012

My hands are itchy
that 
might
be 
because
of all of the leftover dust